My New Years Resolution...s

in the past six days i have been doing a lot of thinking. there are soo many things in my life that i need to work on. i'm only going to name a few:

first off: my goal is to lose at least 50 lbs. i've already lost the baby weight plus an extra 7 lbs. that was a major motivation. i've already cut out fast food and junk food...except the occasional piece of chocolate. WUT? i'm a girl..i gotta have my chocolate. lol

secondly: i need to be more submissive. my mom and i were talking about how the woman is supposed to be submissive to the man. and i realized that i have a hard time of that. i am a very independent person and that seems to get me in trouble sometimes. it's going to be hard but with God's strenghth i'll be able to do it.

thirdly: i'm going back to school to get a degree in the medical field. not quite sure wut i want to do quite yet...but ill figure it out as i go

next: i plan on spending as much time with jessie while she is still at home. we haven't really been able to hang out that much b/c of our schedules. i want to cherish the time that i still have with her before she graduates. she wants to move out and live in a dorm...and i def wont see much of her then. i've taken my sisters for granted and i need to come to terms with the fact that they are growing older and that we are moving our own ways. i just hope and pray that we will stay close friends

then: i plan on growing closer to God. i am really horrible at doing my scripture readings. my mom and i are going to be there for each other so that we won't fall behind. i know that in doing this...i will be a better person and hopefully it will help me to witness better and to serve the Lord the way i need to.

those are just a few things that i need to do. i'm leaving everything in God's hands. it's a new year and time for a new me. i'm a mommy now...and that changes a lot of things just by itself c:

Finally Free of You

so about an hour ago i found out that someone in my past that i was holding onto has moved on completely. when i read the status update...something inside of me lifted. weird yes, but i was actually excited and happy all at the same time. i'm finally free of him and only have to deal with him b/c of one reason. if u know me and who i'm talking about then you know wut that reason is. i've never felt this relieved to be free of anybody. if he can move on that fast..then so can i. i just hope that his new gf knows wut she's getting herself into. i don't want her to get hurt like i did. hopefully if things start to sour she'll realize it before i did. all i can do is pray for her.

on a lighter note.
yesterday was one of the best days i've had in a while (other than november 19, 2008 at 12:36 pm when my son was born)
i got to spend the entire day with my mom. we don't get to do that that much anymore. i aslo got to spend the evening with her and my sisters..and of course my little monkey...can't go anywhere without him!! yesterday made me realize how much i love the gurls in my everyday life. yes at times i might not like them for reasons..but they are family and i love them!! we talked about a lot of things. it was extremely nice to just be able to have a meanigful conversation with them. i told my mom that we need to do that more often. my sister will be graduating this year and she wants to live on-campus at usc, and if she does i won't get to see her that often...so i'm going to make the most of the remaining time that she's at home!!

well i have to go...it's dinner time!! YAY for sausage and rice and corn and greenbeans!! YUMMY!!!

love sam <3